I saw a nice young gentlemen for a tantra-ssage. He had recently had a bad experience with a lady from Santa Fe.  She was a bit “out there”.  One thing she did was read his and his wives astrology chart and told him he needed to get a divorce.  That’s really not what he wanted to hear, as his wife had given him permission to explore other avenues.  Tantra can be very difficult to understand.  I’m still learning. So I keep it really simple with the info I share with you.  For example, I will open your chakras during the massage.  And I may briefly mention it, but usually don’t go into great detail  as to what and why I am doing this.

We talked.  I wanted to know more about his background, goals and expectations.  With many of my clients, I act as a counselor and educator.  It’s hard to teach much in a one hour tantra-ssage session, but I did a little teaching and worked on ways to get him to last longer.  He is already planning on coming back next week for more teachings and relaxation!

It’s hard for me to meet men in the civie world, so I usually meet men through my work.  When I first moved here I became good friends and lovers with a once client.  We saw each other, “off the clock” for a while and had some great times.  I’ve since seen him a few more times, but I won’t give him lovin without pay, and haven’t in well over a year.  Jerry is the only one I currently reserve that right to.  Call me old-fashioned, call me loyal, but that’s the way I am.  I know he was disappointed.  We had a wonderful dinner together.  And lots of talking.   He told me he loves me and just can’t pay me for sex any longer.  I guess that totally caught me by surprise.  I haven’t heard from him in months.  Our last time together we had pizza and margaritas and watched Diary of a Call Girl.  So he knows where I am coming from,  but still hopes for more with me.  He’s a wonderful man, and I adore him!  And he has a girlfriend who wans to marry him. It’s part of the dilemma being an escort.  Keeping boundaries, staying professional and not getting attached.  Making it feel real.  Yet being somewhat distant.  I know he sees other escorts.  I guess it was my fault for giving it away in the first place .  But at the time, it felt right.  It has always bothered me when men I feel close to see other escorts, and no longer want to pay me, yet they still want to see me.  It’s just hard for me where my head is right now to have casual sex without pay.  I guess I want more in my personal life.  Emotionally sometimes it is difficult to keep my personal sex life and my business sex life separate.

Lots of stuff to do around the hacienda today.  Errands to run and tonight…………. I see Jerry again.

Had a late night appointment with a sweetheart from Florida who’s in a very specialized profession.  I’ll call him Gulliver.  I was only his second escort he has seen and he is hooked!  I could tell by his email corespondence and telephone conversations I was going to like him.  He arrived even later as he had a hard time getting a cab from his hotel.  Our late night rendezvous was awesome!  He enjoyed the cuddles, the massage, and I the DATY!  Since it was so late, I took him back to his hotel in my car.  See, I provide that extra service and with a smile too!

Another day around the hacienda and I am perfectly content.  And I saw another newbie who is local to ABQ. He found me doing a Google search. I wish I had more of those referrals.  I’ll call him Steve.  He too was a sweetheart!  Steve’s a world traveler, has an interesting and rare profession, a gorgeous smile, a great touch and was a good kisser.  He brought me a small gift from Russia.  We really connected.  While pillow talking and cuddling he said he felt a little guilty.  He didn’t expect to feel that way.  He said he didn’t think he would like me so much and that it felt too real and too good. If it were just a quickie and cold service, he wouldn’t have felt so bad.  I’m just too nice, sexy and sweet for my own good sometimes!  I think this could be an issue while some of my client’s don’t return to see me.  I just have to re-assure some of my client’s that they are not getting what they need from home, they have exhausted all avenues, and I am their last resort for intimacy.  It is better to see someone like me, than to find a girlfriend on the side, or on-line or at a bar and start a relationship with her.  I truly feel my role is more of a surrogate lover, than just an escort.  Men see me for so many different reasons, and I provide a much needed and valuable service.

Went out with friends to the River of Lights at the Botanic Gardens.  Got to meet a nice gentleman in the civie world through my friends A&B.  The lights were spectacular!  We then had dinner at “Antiquities”, one of my favorite restaurants.  I had a great time.  He is a nice man, a little too old for me though.

Today I didn’t even leave the house till later in the afternoon. Still putting it back together from company for the holidays.  I finally got a washer and dryer, albeit a used set.  I didn’t have the slinky hose for the dryer so I had to go buy one then hook it up myself.  I still need some help, it’s not right.  I think I need to take the washer out of the laundry room to be able to maneuver the dryer to get the hose short enough so it doesn’t kink.  There is no room in my laundry area to turn around in.  As big as this house is, it has a tiny laundry room.

Getting ready for a late night appointment.  It looks like I am going to have a busy week, finally!  Still no plans for NY Eve though?  Would anyone like to join me at my hacienda for a couple of hours and a champagne toast at midnight?  A Date Without the Hassles would be lovely.

I really want to go to Dubai soon, but January is historically a good month for me state side.  Any interest in me coming to Dubai in February or March?  I’m interested in finding someone to exchange their air miles with me for a free date.   Any takers?  I’m sure we could work out an amicable arrangement.

Gotta primp now!

I did more prepping and getting my house set for my mom and sister to arrive on XMAS Eve. It does take a while to de-escort the house. I picked up my mom from the airport after almost getting stuck in the garage. Having trouble with the door getting stuck and not shutting, then because of the sheer size, had a hard time getting it to open manually. Shortly after I picked my mom up, my sister drove in from Denver. We visited over appetizers then went to Old Town to see the luminarias. It was fun, then off to the Country Club area to see the hot air balloons. They were all lit up and glowing. It was awesome the colors in the night sky were spectacular.

When my sister and I get together, one of our hobbies is decorating. She helped me re-arrange my house. It looks a bit different that how I had things arranged. I’ll change a few things again after she leaves. She tends to like things more cluttered than me.

We had XMAS dinner at my friend’s A&B and went to see the new Tom Cruise movie Vlakerie. I didn’t really care for the movie and found it hard to follow who was who. We had a nice breakfast outing at the Pueblo Harvest at the Museum. Did some shopping. My sister also helped me go through some paperwork and I was able to find my car title and receipts for my stolen pieces of Van Briggle Pottery. I’m disappointed those pieces were taken as they were collector’s pieces and cannot be replaced. Oh well, at least I have good insurance.

I now have my house and peace and quite back. I had a great visit with them but it always feels good to be alone again! Tonight I go to dinner and the River of Lights with A&B and a gentleman friend of theirs I have never met. He is lonely and sad as his wife recently died. As much as I love my work, I’m anxious to meet someone new in a non-working capacity!

The last few days I have been busy with family, but prior to their arrival, I was able to spend the evening  before XMAS Eve with Jerry.  It was a cold winter night, and had snowed earlier in the day.  He was cooking a nice steak dinner for me.  I thought it would be fun and flirty to arrive to his house in nothing but a fur coat with matching bra and panties, and high heels.  I think he enjoyed the view when I removed the coat to find not much clothing on me.  I brought XMAS gifts too!  Instead of our usual wine, we had Crown Royal and watched a porn parody of Bewitched. The colors were so bright and vibrant, like being on mushroom tea.  I hadn’t done that in 25-years but I remember the day.  I helped in the kitchen while he prepared a Steak with a Peppercorn Cream and Sherry Sauce.  Jerry always amazes me with the stuff he can come up with. He really is simple minded,  but a highly educated, well rounded, well read man. The sex was awesome as usual.  There is not many men I want to go an hour with sexually, but he just does it for me and keeps my juices flowing. I so much enjoy our talks and the companionship.  I do miss preparing dinner in the kitchen with a love.  My ex-husband and I shared many wonderful afternoon and evenings together in the kitchen.  I ended up spending the night with him, or did I pass out from all the Crown Royal.  Remember, I rarely spend an entire night with a man in the same bed.  I slept okay.  The next morning, I devoured is cock.  I asked, when was the last time you had a bj in the morning, and it’s not even your birthday”?  I spoil Jerry rotten, I’m not sure he appreciates me.  I deserve a man who appreciates me and know what a special woman I am.   I told him a few days earlier I thought he was selfish, immature and flaky.  He let me know he did not agree with those adjectives, but might could be considered self-absorbed is all.  He reminded me he is a lawyer and he could be making a lot more money than he does, but he choses not to go down that path.  Anyway…………I had another delightful evening with this man.  Despite his short comings, I still adore him!

I decided not to unpack last night and went to see the movie “Australia” instead.  It was a good movie, but almost 3-hours long.  A couple of times I thought it was over and got up to leave.  I give it a thumbs up and 3 1/2 stars.

Why does everyone want to see me on the same day?  It’s feast or famine, sometimes I wish I could clone myself.  I got to see an old client from Santa Fe today.  We have a good connection as we both love and are intrigued with India.  And I can get him to breathe correctly.  We are in unison and it really gets the energy flowing with the massage.  Remember, a tantra-ssage is all about connecting with one another and the earth.  Breathing makes a huge difference in how you react to my touch and the release you will ultimately achieve.

Sometimes I am so ditsy.  I take after my mother and can be such a blond.  I went to Bed, Bath and Beyond again to by a few things for the hacienda.  I get home, unpacked the items from the bag.  At the same time I unpack a few boxes and put away things in their respective places.   Later in the evening, I start to put up these extra long shower curtain liners I had bought earlier in the day.  I have to get the ladder out because remember, I have tall ceilings so it requires extra long curtains which are hard to find.  I can’t find one of the shower curtains I bought, so I called B,B&B and talked to the manager.  I assumed the cashier had not put the item in my bag.  He said to come back tomorrow and they will refund my money.  Meanwhile, I put up the other shower curtain liner in one of the bathrooms.  It’s 72 inches, not 84 as indicated on the packaging.  So I call the manager again about that.  Then I remembered where the other shower curtain went, I accidently packed it in the massage room supplies, thinking it was a cheap shower curtain I use for some of my body wraps.  I was embarrassed to call the manager again.  But it too was to short.  So I’ll have to take both liners back tomorrow in between the 2-appointments I have scheduled.  I need to get them up before my mom and sister arrive and want to take a shower.

I did another ditsy thing.  I went to check the mail.  I haven’t gotten much because of the address change.  My mom said she sent me a card and for to be on the look out for it.  My sister had already gotten her XMAS card from mom, and let me know there is a nice check in the envelope along with the card.  After the shower curtain incident, I decided to open the card.  I open it, without my reading glasses, and there is no check.  My mom didn’t send me a check!  I was about to call my sister and cry!  I decided to actually read the card first.  Duh, it was from my friends A&B and not my mom!  hehe  So there was no check!  Gosh……..help me, I need a keeper sometimes!

Tonight I’m just hanging out alone!  I feel asleep on the couch last night watching TV!  If I can’t sleep, watching TV will put me to sleep every time!

Tomorrow night my friend Jerry is cooking another steak dinner for me.  I’m anxious to see him again.  My juices have been flowing nicely lately!  Yummy!

I managed to enjoy myself at A&B’s Open House.  I polished off an entire bottle of Riesling by myself.  It took me 6-hours though!  I now feel I am part of their group of friend’s.  I have attended about a half dozen parties with the same group of friends.  “A” was not at the party a good deal of the evening.  He had to visit the emergency room as he cut his finger with a knife prepping for the party.  He required six stitches.  Maybe in January or February, I’ll have my own open house at the new place when I am about ready kick off my new business venture.  I talked about my new project to all the guests last night and they are excited for me.  “B” failed to take down her advent calendar coupons from the refrigerator.  Boy did the guest have a field day with those.  “This coupon entitles “A”  to one blow job in the garage”.  And another one, “this coupon entitles the bearer to “public sex” in a place of his choosing”.  “‘A” gets fun things like this in his calendar stocking for the month of December.  ‘B’ was pretty embarrassed, but we all had good fun with reading the coupons!  I was a bit hung over and did not sleep very well. I think I was dehydrated.

Well, my mom got so upset that my sister had decided to visit me for XMAS  So now, she is coming too!  They both arrive XMAS Eve for a few days.  I’ll plan a few fun things for us to do!  I still would like to work some if the opportunity arises and I can send them off shopping or sightseeing.   They both know it is usually my busiest time of the year, and I may want to take an appointment or two.  My mom will say, “Elizabeth, you’ve been giving a lot of massages”.  She’ll mention this, I know.  Because I do have a very lovely home and it shows that I am a successful at what I do.  She doesn’t quite know all the details about my life.  I’ll never tell her the whole story, it would be too painful for her.

I had planned to go to Jerry’s church today and hear his sermon.  I can’t seem to find it though.  It is a very small place.  Or maybe I’m just scared to go again, cause I’ll cry.  I hate crying in front of others. I admire Jerry’s spiritual and religious qualities.  And on another note, he has gotten my juices flowing.  I’m just a little horn dog as of late!

I did more shopping today and had to return a couple of items.  Like my new boots.  I wore them around the house, and they just weren’t comfortable.  I usually wear a size 5 1/2 and sometimes a 6. It is very hard to find shoes or boots in that small of a size.  I guess my boobs make up for the small feet!  hehe  I had to buy my mom a gift or two as well.

While buying a few groceries at Walmart, I had to go to the ladies room.  As I entered, a lady had passed out on the toilet and had fallen.  Another lady was screaming.  The by stander was too large to fit under the stall to check on her.  Before I knew it,  I had layed on the floor and crawled under the stall door to get to her.  I got to use some of my emergency responder skills.  She was breathing, but appeared she had hit her head on the stall and was knocked out.  I stayed with her, and tried to get the others to not move her as we did not know the scope of her injuries.  She was wedged in between the toilet and the stall wall.  I left after tons of staff came in and felt there was nothing more I could do. Poor woman.  It was not a pretty situation to be involved in.  It is already time for my annual CPR re-certification.

No plans for tonight.  Think I will go to a movie.  Or I could unpack another box or two from the garage.  Nah, a movie sounds more fun!  Wish I had someone to go to a movie with me.

It was a quiet Friday.  I did more holiday shopping and ran errands.  Wrapped gifts.  I even had time for a power nap. I haven’t had that luxury in over a month.  I love my power naps.  Nothing better than to be wrapped up in the arms of a lover on a cold winter day! I was alone.

I made a huge pot of Turkey Posole.  I don’t make it the traditional New Mexican way, mine is tastier and healthier in my opinion.  Yummy!  I love a good hearty soup and stew in the winter. I need to come up with an appetizer dish for a party at A&B’s tonight.  I think I’ll do meatballs with a sweet chili sauce.  It’s easy and tasty.  Or, I might get really creative too.  We shall see what I get in the mood to prepare.

My sister called and has now decided she is coming to ABQ and arriving on XMAS Eve.  I let her know I hope to have an appointment or two.  Generally, I am busy the week between XMAS and New Year’s as guys need to escape from the family for an hour or two.  She understands, and will leave the hacienda when I have a guest.

Ahhh, more domestic chores to do now.

Even though, I am seeing few and fewer clients these days, I really am enjoying it more. I always talk about having balance in my life, and right now, I truly feel blessed and balanced.

I saw Darryl this evening. He is the nice gentleman I had lunch with the other day. We had a spectacular evening. I had purchased 3-bottles of wine for us to choose from. I never made it to Casa Rodena. Just too busy today and had to wait on a plumber. Urgggh,….. The three wines were: 3-Girls Chardonnay 2006, from Lodi CA, Sterling 2005 Cab Sav, Rutherford Ranch 2005 Cab Sav. Although he said he likes a nice California wine, he said he was not a wine snob. He chose the 3-Girls. We visited over the wine in the large front living room and got to know each other better. He asked that I be in charge. I still am shy, believe it or not, and like to take my time. We started with a mini tantra-ssage. He enjoyed this, but I knew he wanted more of me and more intimacy. I really like touching a person’s body first. It helps me build a more intimate connection with you when I can touch and feel your body. We had a wonderful time in my bedroom too. Thank you Darryl! I believe I knocked his socks off. And mine were knocked off too. He made a comment that there is no comparison to what I offer verses other ladies and that he had been with many ladies in his lifetime. He took a shower and requested more wine after he got dressed for us to enjoy over more conversations. He asked that I open the Sterling! We talked more and he lectured me about not charging enough for the service I provide! I believe that to be successful you have to look and act successful.  My place will give you the impression that I am very successful at what I do!  Darn, I wish I could get away with charging more.  The locals will remind you that we are one of the poorest states in the nation.  Okay guys, even though I only charge $250 for a generous hour for my returning friends, I will always accept more if you can afford it. My returning friends or the crutch of my business, so I don’t want to alienate you in any way. Thank you so much for all the times you return to see me! I am so appreciative. My CPA friend reminded me this morning at breakfast that I had included my total cost of living as a business expense. Well not quite. hehe But a more realistic dollar amount that it costs me for each appointment is more towards the $150-$175 range. Darryl and I had a great evening together, for his next visit he wants to cook dinner for me! Once again, thank you Darryl!

I heard from an old client this evening. It really means a lot to me when you write. I have not seen him in almost 5-years. He says I remain his ATF, and he reads my blog regularly. He was hoping I would return to Denver for the holiday so we could get together. He has since moved to another state, but was returning to Denver for the holidays. Sometimes I get depressed and feel no one luvs me, then when I get emails like this, it helps me realize I do make a difference in men’s life’s. How many people can say that about the work they do, and get real pleasure out of their job?

I have mentioned this before, but it would mean so much to me if more of you would comment on my blog. Especially after we have had a session together. I know most will never write reviews, but a simple few lines on my blog about our time together would be appreciated by both me and my readers and give more credibility to what I am all about. I promise, no one has access to your personal information. Which reminds me, I never use any real names or professions in my stories. So please never worry about this. I am feeling a little sentimental at the moment, maybe it is the wine!

I had a great day yesterday!  Got lots of unpacking done and more settled in.  The house appears to be in good order, on the surface.  But the garage is a disaster.  I have numerous boxes that need unpacking and sorting through. I need to find art receipts for insurance purposes and my car title so I can finally take my New Mexico residency seriously!  I’ve got to buy a new shredder.  So many things got left behind in Denver.

Did some holiday shopping. I enjoyed it and bought me a couple of shirts, some gifts, and a new pair of dressy boots.  I tend to buy more for others, the house and for entertaining than I do for me.

I met a delightful gentleman for lunch nearby.  He has had some not so great experiences with ladies and is extremely selective in who he sees now.  I passed the test.  We have a long date tomorrow evening.  I enjoyed the smiles, laughter and conversation over lunch, so I know I will enjoy his company over dessert at my place.  I don’t mind doing that and probably will be offering more meet and greet dates as business has slowed.  And…….. as I become even more selective in who I see too.  I just don’t want to get into guys meeting me for free with no intention in following through on a date.  If that happens, I will consider charging $50 for a coffee or lunch date, which will be applied toward a session with me.  Fair enough?  So if you are not sure about meeting me, let’s do something social and go from there.  I know a lot of gentlemen read my diary who have never met me.  This might be a good option, at least for the local fellas.

A gentlemen I recently saw introduced me to this musical artist, Loreena McKennitt’s. www.quinlanroad.com I love this music, it is almost angelic.  Listen to some of the soundtracks and let me know what you think.  Would you enjoy being massaged to this?  Some of her high pitched  notes might be too much for some.  Over the years I have tended to use only music with no lyrics so it is not so distracting.  I liked the Ancient Muse CD the best. It appeals to the world traveler in me!  I should just go buy it or order  on-line.

I spent a good deal of the morning today waiting on Comcast.  They arrived early enough but spent 2-hours here trying to find out why my TV sounds garbled.  It took 4 attempts to get this done.  Hopefully they corrected it this time.  I had to send my new laptop back to Toshiba.  It bit the dust.  It seems I always have administrative things to do!

I have seen two tantra-ssage guests this week.  One is a young and cute returning friend who I have had a hard time rescheduling with.  This time he was wanting to pleasure me.  So I had him massage me.  He did an awesome job and I orgasm-ed by him using a finger!

The other guest was an out of towner.  We tried to get together this summer but he had to cancel on me due to allergies.  He was so sweet and cuddly!  I enjoyed his touch and amazing eyes and smile.  They both were just delightful and I had a great time and felt a connection to both of them.  I really don’t mind be touched while I am massaging my guest.  It does throw the massage off a bit, but I roll with the flow and enjoy being touched as much as I love touching another human being.

Yikes, I burned a hole in my famous foot booties that I use for massage.  I am using a different microwave that I guess is more powerful.  It smelt like burnt popcorn in the hacienda for a while.  New ones are on my “to buy” list, if I can even find them.  I think Whole Foods or Wild Oats may still carry them.  I have numerous items I need at Bed, Bath and Beyond for the new place.  Gosh…………moving is expensive.  Still saving for the new washer and dryer.  Several people have mentioned I should look on Craigslist.

Tomorrow I have breakfast with my friend and lover, Sensual Gent.  For lunch I need to be home for another worker, and the afternoon will be spent with my new client friend over a nice bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon. Maybe I’ll pick up a bottle at Casa Rodena.

I want to return to Dubai soon for a week!  Any interest?