What the hell is a vortex anyway?

My second day of the spiritual quest was equally as busy.  I met a lady from Australia.  Her name was Amelia.  She lived in Sedona and moved there because of dreams she kept having about this one particular rock.  It was called Chimney Rock.  She even wrote a book about it.  Guess it was her calling to go to Sedona.  I can’t imagine having that much passion about anything, much less a rock.  We hiked a bit up the trail for a  Spiritual Awakening.   She wanted me to look at the rock and tell her what I saw.  A metaphor of my life so to speak.  Well……….. as I peered at it intently, it looked like maybe two rocks.  One was a male and the other female.  The male was rough around the edges and looked big and strong.  The male was the protector.  The female was smooth and sleek looking, yet confident in her facade.  She asked how that related to me?  And I said, “On the surface, everyone thinks I am big and strong and a powerful independent woman”.  “But in reality, I am not as strong as I seem”.  She wanted me to talk about this more.  I started to cry.  I started with how happy I am being independent and single, then before I knew it I was balling and saying I wanted someone in my life to love me.  It’s a huge facade I put on really!  I always say if the right man came along and the timing was right, I’d stop escorting in a heartbeat.  She told me my heart is in pain and I needed to open it up and let love come to me.  She says it’s out there for me, I just have to let love in.  Humm……….food for thought and I’m not sure what to think or where to take that whole scenario and this line of thinking.  Maybe if love hit me in the face I wouldn’t even know it.  It’s been so long for me.  In eight years, I have only had one relationship, which ended badly.  Not counting a few flings with clients.  Three years after the ended relationship with Bob, we became friends again. I forgave him for hurting me.  I pretty much saved his life as I did an intervention when I found out he was doing drugs behind my back.  He had become addicted to crack cocaine.  I knew something was wrong, but I just didn’t know what.  It took him three years, but he recognized it and thanks me for saving his life!  Okay, enough on that.  This was an interesting exercise for me! I’ll have to work on opening up my heart again.  The few times I have opened up, it’s gotten squashed and trampled though!  hehe

The next session was Tantra Intro with Massage Techniques.  This was probably my most disappointing as I was really hoping to learn some new things from this renowned teachers to take back with me to share with my clients.  I told her from the beginning I really hoped she would not make me cry like the others had done. We basically did a few breathing exercises.  Most of them I can’t do with clients, unless they spend several hours with me.  This exercise alone can take up to an hour.  Hopefully I will be able to do some of the breathing on my own.  I know it is something I need to work on.  She said she knew of a lady who had MS and was pretty much wheelchair bound.  After doing these exercises, everyday for a year, she was out of her wheelchair and walking on her own.  So surely the breathing tape can help me!  At least in a subtle way.  I bought the CD we listened to.  It’s very active for a breathing exercise and lasts almost an hour!  Maybe I’ll do this on the days I’m not working out with the trainer.

My final session for the day was called, Vortex Tour and Meditation.  I did an easy several mile hike with a local anthropologist.  We had a great time.  The views were awesome, the day was perfect.  This by far was my favorite session.  I finally felt grounded and alive.  He left me alone so I could listen to the sounds in the canyon.  I loved it.  For about ten minutes, I sat alone and listened to the birds, the crickets,  and the secadas.  No crying!!!!!!

So what the hell is a vortex anyway?  He said many feel it, but many do not.  Regardless, Sedona does has a special energy which is indeed hard to explain. http://gosw.about.com/od/sedonaarizona/a/sedonavortex.htm